2024, Utrecht, Netherlands
I am afraid of not living
I'm afraid of not realizing that I live
I am afraid of not knowing how to live
I'm afraid of not being afraid
I don’t know, it feels like I always tried to live in the future. I was spending most of my time thinking on who I was going to be or how I was going to live, without realizing that I was already living.
When you’re more on the future than in your present, your present becomes your past without noticing.
How sad is that? Not being able to realize that you’re alive, not being able to feel the emotions dancing throw you, not being able to see what your eyes see.
Perhaps the greatest gift we can give ourselves is the presence to embrace the present, that might be the essence of living.
I am afraid of not living
I'm afraid of not realizing that I live
I am afraid of not knowing how to live
I'm afraid of not being afraid
